Still on Track

I stuck to the program most of the week. Saturday and Sunday I just didn't feel like eating. Weird?? I know. I haven't gone back to the gym yet, but have been doing a lot around the house and have been feeling better. I'm planning on going back after July 4.

The results...HW 317, PSW 306.4, SW 284, CW 270.2

It's Working

One week down on Medifast. Since I don't eat a lot of calories, any bit of effort completely wears me out. I did great and hope it continues.

And the results are....HW 317, PSW 306.4, SW 284, CW 272.2

And that's after I got my period halfway through the week. AMAZING!!

Reflection

So it's been just over a year since I started this blog. As you know, the past few months, I have not been very active here because of my complete disappointment and discouragement. Ultimately, I do not regret having the surgery. I think the restriction on how much I can eat will be beneficial throughout my life because once I get started, I have a hard time stopping. I do not go for my visits with the surgeon anymore and probably won't again unless I absolutely have to. The friend/client that did so well on Medifast is now a coach for their company. I have decided to go back and try it again. It worked the first time and I'm already used to eating less and 6 times a day. I started on Monday and have had fabulous results since. I'm not sure why I wasn't given more guidance the first time around, but her little tips have kept me interested and not hungry. On their website, you can track your meals, calories, weight loss and exercise and so far, I've been diligent with it. I have asked her to keep tabs on me and she has texted everyday. Even though I have been keeping up with my exercise, I'm supposed to reduce it by half for the first weeks while on this program. Of course, I figured since I was already eating reduced calories and my body was used to it, that rule would not apply to me. Well, last night I mowed my lawn and could have easily gone to bed at 8 pm. I guess it is affecting me. I can't do the gym tonight because I forgot an extra meal and there is no way I can go so many hours AND workout without eating. I will remember tomorrow to pack it.

So, I will admit where I'm at and will begin to track things again here: HW 317, PSW 306.4, SW 284, CW (as of Monday when I started Medifast) 279.8

I'm baaaaack!!

So I went to the gym Friday night and made it to 40 minutes. Saturday, I made it on the elliptical trainer to 50 minutes and on Sunday, I made it the full 60 minutes PLUS a 5 minute cool down. I feel amazing AND I lost 2 of the pounds I have gained back. I feel so energized and excited to go back tonight, even though I didn't sleep much last night with the announcement that Bin Laden had been killed.

It's been a while

I haven't posted in some time. I find it very difficult to get back on the right track eating what I should and exercising. I really don't know what my problem is. I've cancelled my doctor's appointments and just trying to get a grip. I'm so mad that tax season has once again 'won'. I hate what an extra 10-15 pounds has made me feel and look like. I know I shouldn't dwell on my mistakes or what happened and just go forward, but it's so hard. I don't eat as much anymore since tax season has ended and now I realize how bad the stress is and how much of an emotional eater I am. I want to start over and lose like I should and never let that happen again. I get full, but I never get sick from the amount of food I consume. I rarely get sick anymore, only if a food isn't moist enough and gets stuck. I feel like I can eat so much more than I should be or thought I could ever eat after the surgery. I want so badly to snap out of this funk and get back that 'loving gym' feeling and spend extra time cooking yummy foods again, not just throwing things together. I know I need a vacation desperately and have none planned at the moment. I blame tax season a lot, but bottom line, I can't leave the industry now so I just have to find better ways to deal with it. I've been back to the gym only once since April 15th and left feeling so defeated. I could only do a half an hour on the ellipitcal trainer, when I had worked up to doing an hour before I stopped going. Everyday since I've been trying to convince myself to go and have failed. Again, I am going to try to muster the strength and courage to go tonight after work.

Wow

Since, my last post, I have lost complete control. I've been working a minimum of 60 hour weeks and haven't hit the gym or moved much out of my chair at work. I've been eating everything in sight and have been making some poor choices. I don't know what's going on with me. I know this is all stress related and can not believe the damage that I have done. I have worked so hard and let it all slip away so easily and quickly. I know it's not over and it's just a stumble and I can pick up the pieces and move on, but wow, is all I can say. How quickly I can screw up such hard work. The truest thing ever said about this surgery was that the lap band is just a tool. If I choose not to change my life, the lap band will not help. I have felt like crap for the past few weeks and fuller than I ever should be. I only have 3 weeks of tax season left. I hope to get to the gym sometime later this week. I will make better choices and eat only when I'm hungry. I did start making this really yummy tuna dish for lunch. I use a can of tuna, some golden raisins, chopped onions, fat free mayo and chopped broccoli. It's so filling and different than just plain old tuna.

What's done is done. I changed my appointment to the end of April. No point in going in before when I haven't been doing what I'm supposed to be doing. I certainly don't want to be lectured at this point. I know I screwed up, but it's not over. I want to get back on track now. I can do this. I will succeed. I have learned so much about myself throughout this journey and still have a long way to go.

Tomorrow is another day and I will get back on track and do the right thing for my health. No more fooling around. Christine first.

I don't want to post the updates, because I'm embarrassed that I let things spin out of control so quickly without realizing in such a short amount of time.

No Fill For Me!!

I didn't get a fill yesterday. The surgeon says my reaction to bread and chicken was typical when the band is this tight. He thinks it's at a good point now and will only fill in small increments in the future, like a quarter or half cc. The doctor said my weight loss is slow and I just looked at him. Duh!! It's what I complain about every single visit. We once again went through the foods I eat on a daily basis and he was only concerned with my breakfast which is a No Sugar Added Carnation Instant Breakfast shake made with skim milk plus. He always tears apart that breakfast, but honestly, I went home and looked at the box versus a box of cereal that he suggested and I just don't get it. The shake looks so much healthier and a third of the carbs. I will have to bring the box in next visit because I'm so confused. I really don't mean to challenge so much. I'm just trying to learn and once again, I feel like I'm getting conflicting information. Of course, yesterday I was still at my highest weight in the past 3 weeks when I went for my weigh in, but somehow managed to lose a pound according to their records. I haven't been to the gym since Sunday and haven't been eating veggies like I should be because I'm broke and imagine my surprise when I stepped on the scale this morning. I seriously don't get it at all!!!

HW 317, PSW 306.4, SW 284, CW 263