I'm Back

I haven't posted in awhile for many reasons, but have learned a great deal. Just to update, about a week and a half ago, I received another cc of saline in my band, so I'm up to 5 cc's now. Recovery time was pretty much nothing, a complete breeze compared to the prior fill. I definitely have felt the difference since these last 3 cc's were filled. I have to be a lot more conscious of what I'm eating, how I'm eating it and remember to slow down. Today marked the first actual time I got sick eating. It wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be, but it wasn't great either. I ate chicken that I had frozen and reheated. Not the greatest idea unless I have gravy or something to make it moist. That was my problem. It got stuck in my chest area. It hits quick and right away you know something is wrong. I tried drinking some water, but also knew immediately that it wasn't going to do the trick. I went to the bathroom and got sick. It's not like when you have a virus and possibly can't make the bathroom. You can make it, but it's an uncomfortable feeling and scary. I've been told to stay calm, but of course, when it's you going through it, it's easier said than done. I did relax as much as I could, drank some water, which only made things worse, but eventually everything worked itself out. Naturally, I haven't been entirely myself since. My legs have been rubbery and I just really want to go home and lay down for a bit.

So, as you have read in previous posts, I have freaked out about the slightest weight gain, especially when there is absolutely no reason for it. I discussed it again with everyone at my last appointment and everyone said that it's just hormonal weight gain and I just have to learn to let it pass because there is nothing I can to do prevent it and it always comes off in a week or two. I have still felt that things have been on the slow side. I've been losing, steady, I guess, but so slow. They actually told me that I'm about 10 pounds ahead of schedule. Imagine that!! I was also told to relax and to get out of my head a certain number of pounds to lose. I'm doing fantastic and should be so proud of all I've accomplished. Of course, I am, but I'm trying not to think about it as much anymore. I'm trying to ignore the scale more.

A couple of weeks ago, I finally found a gym that has everything that I've been looking for. I got a free hour session with a personal trainer with my membership and met with her last week. Boy, did I learn a lot!! Seems I've been working out wrong all along. Weights first and then cardio to lose the most weight. Circuit training isn't the best because your muscles get too used to the same motions and after awhile it's not beneficial anymore. I do still do the circuit machines, which are completely different than I've ever used. It takes me about 20 minutes to go through them. I'm starting off easy, but I think next week, I'll go back to 3 sets. Then I do a half hour on the elliptical trainer. I only do the weights every other time because you have to give your muscles a chance to recover and rebuild themselves. On the 'other' days, I'm trying to do the elliptical trainer for about 40 minutes. I made it to 45 the other night. Not bad at all, if you ask me!! So, I've bounced back to the gym with no problems and I'm not letting tax season stop me. I sure wish I could afford the personal trainer because she was wonderful. She did some functional training with me that kicked my butt, but felt amazing!! That's really what I should be doing. Maybe in time. It's amazing that if you stand a certain way, a simple movement will work your entire body and feel so great. I'm having a great time at the gym so far. It's a little crowded, but I'm dealing with it. Feeling great afterwards, however, got on the scale this week and I had gained a few pounds again. I just can't win!! I'm trying to ignore it though.

Another thing I have realized is that I have not been drinking nearly enough water so I have completely changed that and drink only water constantly. I have to make a million trips to the bathroom, but that gets me out of my chair at work and it definitely helps.

I feel at this point that everything has fallen into place for me. Making the right choices has become easy, if not second nature. I don't have cravings anymore like I used to. If I feel like a brownie, I have one, a small one, but I don't sacrifice. Honestly, I rarely chose the wrong things which is so crazy for anyone that knows me. I still love to eat, but I enjoy what I eat more and don't want to waste eating food on garbage. I'm definitely a much happier person, but it's not necessarily all due to the weight loss. I've really been going through a complete transformation in the last 9 months or so and I'm a much better person because of it.

I will not share results now, but my lowest has been 261.2. :)