Struggling

The past four or five days have proven to be quite a challenge for me. I'm not really sure why. Since getting my appetite back and 'eating food' again, I have had the tendencies to go back to some of my old ways. The problem with that is that I could never binge again. I don't want to, but I'm having trouble steering my thoughts away from eating. I do so well during the day, but then I get home and want to just eat. I make myself a yummy dinner and have been keeping somewhat of a rotation of foods so I don't get bored. Maybe it's because I haven't been losing the past couple of weeks and subconsciously sabotaging myself as I have done so many times in the past when I hit a bump in the road. I need to get over this and fast!! I do not understand why I have not been losing, except maybe due to lack of activity. Again, I am hardly taking in any calories so my normal routine should automatically counteract any intake of calories. I am going to Anthony's house after work tonight (something I rarely do) and he will be cooking a yummy dinner for us and then I want to go for a short walk, 20-30 minutes. I am hoping that this will get me back in the swing of things. I also think that I will start the gym next week since I'm feeling so good. I will not overdo it, but I have to do something!!

As I write about my frustrations, I am glad that I recognize them and willing to take the bull by the horns before things get out of control as they have in the past. Deep breaths. This will work for me and change my life forever in such a positive way.