One week and counting.....

This past week or two have been really tough. I have been up and down a few pounds, but currently back down to my lowest at 293.2. Yes, I did cheat a little, but for the most part, I behaved myself. Just getting tired of these shakes. I'm so glad it's almost over and can eat food again, at least for more then one meal.

Tonight, I tried tofu spaghetti for the first time. I was VERY skeptical about it. I have never had tofu before and in general, has been a turn off for me. I also thought it looked gross and had no taste. Well, tonight I am a lover!! I did not appreciate tofu for what it was. A client was telling me about the spaghetti and bought me a bag. I figured, heck, let me give it a try. I browned some chopped turkey and made some tomato sauce and threw in the spaghetti. YUM!!!! Can't wait to have more of it tomorrow. I also made a little bit for my mom to try since she always watches her weight. It is so incredibly low in calories and carbs and a definite for when I'm on the mushy food phase.

OK, now on to some sugergy updates. Tomorrow night I visit my general physician for a medical clearance and Wednesday is Pre-Op. No special rules like fasting or anything and I should learn more about what to expect the day of surgery, which is one week from tomorrow. The past week, I have been very emotional concerning the surgery, which possibly is the reason I went on a minor binge one night. I have chosen to share my decision to have lap band surgery with very few people I personally know. Kind of funny I'm doing this blog for the world to see, but the internet offers much privacy even though I completely expose myself. I have had mixed feelings, not so much about the procedure itself, but how people will react to me after it's done and whether I did the right thing by keeping it private for now. I do have moments that I freak out about the surgery, but stay calm for Anthony. He is very nervous about the surgery. I am lucky enough to have him with me throughout this whole process and the week after surgery as I am recovering at home. I am getting very excited about starting my life over. I can't believe in one week, my life will change forever!! Not too much pressure there. I just keep taking deep breaths and thinking about how much this will improve my enjoyment of life.